All So Lonely

I'm feeling downright lonely just now...
so i'm using blogging as an excuse to spew my guts...
Yeah...real smart, revealing my most
angsty moments online
for all the world to see
but i could care less just now
i'm feeling lonesome...
and i just want to be hugged close
and feel loved

it's kinda sad
not being in love with anyone
and not having anyone to love

i just hate being alone i guess

also, i'm sufferring from writer's block just now...
which is seriously a pain in the ass
i want to write
i finally have time to write
and i cant
i'm all dried up
how useless
22 years old
and already used up
ugh
what a fail!

okay that's enough for now
later! (even though no one reads this)

Mother's Day

So, today's Mom's day...and I already celebrated it with her yesterday lololol...
I took her to the Mall and set her loose to get whatever she wanted :P then my sis, she and I went and had a nice lunch...it was Great to be able to just enjoy ourselves for once :)...I had a lot of fun...

Tomorrow, it's back to work...but no more school until August at least :P So I'm in a relatively good mood :)

That's all that's going on atm...Ciao :)

Finals are Overrrrrrrrrrrr :)

Finals are finally over! This time around, they were particularly brutal...the amount of non-stop studying I did made me feel like a zombie.

I slept most of the day yesterday after my last final and I spent today lazing around and doing nothing. A blissful day!

One of my greatest obsessions is Asian dramas, and by association, Asian men :P Just thought I'd mention the fact :) lol

Anyhow, nothing much more happening right now. It's getting hotter and hotter every day. I guess summer's here and its decided to stay this time.

Hope everyone does well on their finals too! Ciao :)

Final Countdown to Finals

As a university student about to take 3 finals tomorrow, I can not tell you how stressed out I am just now. It's incredibly hard just to breathe. And I feel so TIRED. But I hope that I'll get good grades after this is all over and done with. Off to study some more now!

I'm New

Hello anyone who may come across this blog. I'm new to this whole blogging experience; it's not that I've never blogged before or that I've never commented on anything (I do that a lot; I'm addicted to the internet). It's just that I've never blogged with the intention of revealing everything I'll say now and later in this blog to complete strangers.

All my blogs or journals before have been viewed by friends or people who were somewhat familiar with me. This time, though, I've decided to blog without telling anyone I know about it. Why? I'm not too sure of that yet, but I hope I'll eventually figure it out.

I love to write but I'm frustrated at never having my writing acknowledged. Being average hurts. I am a university undergrad and I don't know what I'm doing with my life. I know a lot of others like me. None of us plan to give up. It's hard, but that's life. We're lucky to be alive, or so I think.

There's so much left to learn, so much left to do, so many things to say...But I don't even know what to start with. Studying seems like a good idea, but to what end? Not having a clear goal is So Painful.

I have exams in less than 48 hours and I haven't yet studied a word; I'm blogging here instead. Pathetic and stupid? Yes. It is. But. I just can't bring myself to study. Ugh.

I'll write more later.